oredi 6th week for this sem...

this is my last sem for A level in inti...
this wed...
i still went for movie as usual..
then rushing back home to fetch my sis to tuition before i leave my home to inti...
after packing and settle all my things...
it's around 6.30+...
then i fetch my sis to tuition...
reaching inti at 7+...
then go to meet kim and geik they all at pizza...
1st time i drive to KLIA myself...
it's really syok though i don't know they way...
just follow the board will do...
taking photo at airport...
then leave...
only for 1 hours 18 minutes,the parking fee is rm6.50...
still owing mui geik...
paiseh leh...
then the way back...
mui geik is the one who driving...
actually her skill not bad de...
just dont know what she scare...
then..she suddenly very got form...
fetch us go nilai spring...
that's the way we pass through the night before taking AS result...

it was really tiring...i straight away sleep after i get back to room...
then the next day morning...
i get my result...
it's just same as my forecast...
i didn't feel happy or sad at all...
just normal...
but it makes me don't know which field should i choose...
really makes me BLUR~

thu night...
we just sleep til 8++ only wake...
then go for dinner...
this is the 1st time i had my dinner for more than1 hour...
i really cant accept it...
omg..
then we go search for watching meteor...
but we wait till 12 to 1+...
still not yet see it...
then we go back to hostel...
so sad...
i go finish my remaining homework...
it takes me till 3...
go back sleep...
and again....
i'm the earliest to sleep...
hehe

fri...
i face a mental and physical problem...
but now things settle...
i just hope i can be tougher...
no more tears...
no more complaint...
no more playing...
all the best to you guys,dude...

被遗弃、被嫌弃、被抛弃...

最近的我...
才发现...
原来不被重视的感觉...
是那么的痛...
每当别人看到你时...
嘴里总是问着其他人...
那种感觉...
真的让我觉得掉进谷底...
感觉上...
就没有重视过你...
感觉上你就是有义务必须随传随到...
大家都认为你所做的都是应该的...
没有人需要在乎你的感受...
没有人需要明白你...
那种不被重视的痛...
不是割伤的痛...
而是寒冷...
被风刺痛...
也许一直以来的我...
就是那么的自我中心...
那么的不可理喻...
我的存在...
让别人有渴望宁静...
而希望我离去的感觉...
我...应该离去...
离开这需要宁静的城市...
直到永远...
让大家...
过着平静的生活...
我的离去...
是给你们最好的安慰..
再见了，朋友们~

again having fun...but smtg horrible cuming...

last week...only tue i'm staying at home..
the other days stay at inti...
wed stay at inti after class...
as usual...
wed is my movie day...
use alot money eat eat n buy buy...
sure got to do homework also la...
cause too tired...
just finish few sentence...
go back sleep already lor...
then...
wed just use up too much money and watch SALT...
nice movie...

thu...
as usual go class till 4...
then...
go back sleep if not mistaken...
night all go for dinner together...
then we go sing k for 2 hours...
twice in a week...
haha...
after finish sing k...
when going back...
meet sam...the mc of 30 hour famine...
he's going to leave the next day...
so go sing k with them lor...
continuously...
i play for 5 hours++
it's damn tired but happy...
after sing k...
we go meet daddy(kenny)...
pity him...that time only he's going to have his dinner...
cham cham...
then go snap photo with them along the way back...
i go back at around 2++...
but yet don't know why i cant fall asleep...
i keep my eye open til 4 only i get sleep...

the next day class is 8am...
then...
it's extremely tiring...
after class..
i go take my forcast result...
it's not what i want but is what i should get...
though it's the fact...
but i really feel sad...
especially when my bio teacher tell me i'm going to get B for my fav subject...
it's extremely hurt...
and make me do this decision...
if i really get B for my bio...
i'm going to give up my medic...
and going to take IB...

although almost all the people beside me advise me to take medic and never give up...
but i really not dare to take the risk...
it's for my future...
i really scare i'll regret...
tired of making decision...
damn tired!!!
no long have confidence in taking medic..
i'm going to get my result on thu...
i have completely no idea what i want to be and who i am...
what should i do???