Friday, 4 June 2010

for those i noe...

time flies...
i'm going 2 finish my 2nd last sem in inti...

for fren in inti
tis sem...
less communication...
less dining time...
less chit-chat time...
less nite nite...
less yam chaing...
less watch movie...
less photo snapping...
less enjoying...
less party...
everything bcum less n less...
not blaming my frens but myself...
less fun...
not bcoz of u all...
juz bcoz of me...
many ting happen on me...
though oredi few...reli few ppl noe...
but duno y i even hope tat there's none...
i hope can live in own world...
tats y a big change after cny...
i hope i can handle everyting myself...
i noe i got 2 grow...
not longer dependent...
tats y...tats y...
sorry frenz...
i noe i'm less cooperative tis sem...
reli sorry...
writing tis not bcoz 1 2 show u guys anyting...
or 1 2 explain anyting 2 u guys...
or 1 2 defence myself...
juz vy easy 2 say sorry...
tats all i would like 2 tel u guys...reli sorry 2 u all...

for my classmate n frens in kjg...
mayb u guys realize i hav change after stay at inti for my 3 sem...
mayb i seems not reli like previous...
mayb u guys tink tat i hav change in my altitude...
i'm sorry 2 say i wont deny...
coz i noe i hav make u guys unhappy wif my talk/speech or even my action...
reli sorry...
din hope u guys can forgive me...
juz giv myself a chance 2 apologize 2 u guys...
mayb i hav done smtg tat hurt u guys...
i noe no matter how...
thr'll b scar after treatment...
but for wat i hav done i cant change...
but i juz feel so sorry if hurting u guys wif my words...

last...
sure is for my family...
though i noe they wont read tis...
but i oso got 2 apologise to them...
coz they r d most tat i hurt...
mayb my sibling r naughty sumtime but i oso done smtg tat they not agree...
y can i juz 4giv them since they can?
now only i tink bout tis...
y tis is only d time???
bout my mum n dad...
i believe i do hurt them b4...
but i noe they r trying themselve 2 4giv me...
y not same wif me?
y i cant 4giv their mistake or try 2 understand their action 4 certain purpose?
i'm reli sorry...
sorry~

i'm sure u guys wil ask wat happen 2 me...
y suddenly write smtg like tis?
if i tel u guys juz a movie...
i learn many theory thr...
i noe life is not as wat v prefer...
is not as wat v want n wat v imagine...
tats y...
i dun1 2 regret when it lost...
tats y...