juz bit update

rushing here...time not enuf...
but got 2 write bit bit here too...
going 4 OLE last fri n sat...
noe more ppl...
is syok actually....
but got a dark dark fella cum kacau...
i hate it!!!
reli shit!!!
finally i noe y carol scare of dark dark fella dy...

oredi finish break dy...
aiks...
1st day duty in intima...
reli duno wat 2 do act...
haiz...
so much ting tat i got 2 settle...
time not enuf...
i hope i reli can use up all my time...
haiz...more time 4 me pls....
act i oso duno wat i'm writing...
but juz 1 2 find a place to bla bla bla jek....hehe....

lost momentum~

a week ago...
i come here bla bla bla...
one week past...
i'm not really know what i have done...
but the most obvious thing is that i didnt do revision...
though i know that there no much time left...
i can even concentrate on my revision..
keep falling asleep...
i hope can sleep more...
but as what eeli usually say...
time is not enough...
really not enough...
i like hanging out with friends...
but there's not much time left...
i like yam cha...
i like chit-chatting...
i like go watching movie...
i like sing k...
i like playing bowling...
i like driving car go where else..
i like so much thing...
and...
there's none that i can do now...
just because...
there's not much time left...
1 month more going to have A2 exam...
but i seems not yet even finish revise...
stat...just start...
maths...no confidence at all...
chem...tomorrow is going to have test...but i'm not really confidence...
bio...i don't know even what i have revise...
what happen on me?
i really like lost the momentum to continue...
is it because i know what i am going to choose will not be affected by this result?
or i use too much energy on AS?
i even don't know myself...
haiz...
just hope that god bless me n my friends tomorrow la...
all the best guys...

random update

for this 2 weeks...
i also don't know what i am doing...
seems like very busy...but actually is busy playing...
16 mon-go celebrate fion birthday...get her a shock...
actually i enjoy this kind of celebration...but unluckily...my 19th bday is nothing even without a cake...no celebration but at least there's bday wishes...thx dude...
for the few days after that...
v just keep studying bio and so on...
sat21-planning going to service mum's car...
but unluckily fully book...
then i fetch ah ma n sayli go sg.wang walk walk lor...
i promise them to fetch them at 11...
but i sleep till 11++...
may be cause the day before i sleep at 6++ ba...
really felt sorry about it...
for sure snapping photo again...
and i love my lunch @ kim gary..syok...
then it comes sun22-eeli n i go 30 hour famine countdown at bukit jalil...
erm...overall is fun...
after the 30 hour famine countdown...
suddenly those stact fella suddenly got such good mood go KL to have their dinner...
and i follow them too...
really dont know why i'll do such thing...
go to TGI friday...
the food is not bad la...
but expansive and too much for us...

this weeks comes...
i didn't really go out this week...
tue morning i fetch my sis go back to TARC and service the car at toyota centre...
i thought i'll lost there...
but it's just very simple way to go...haha...
wed night...it's really tiring...
the next day is maths mid-term test...
actually i didnt prepare well...
so i guess when my result come out...
sure bye bye lor..
thu night dont know why i'll follow eeli go tian hao's family gathering...OMG...
i think i already ki xiao..
then after coming back...
just rushing for assignment cause got to pass up today...
actually i miss those day when i'm staying at hostel...
not going out so often...
save money...
and for sure can study hard...
my own conclusion : my ability to study is based on studying environment..

oredi 6th week for this sem...

this is my last sem for A level in inti...
this wed...
i still went for movie as usual..
then rushing back home to fetch my sis to tuition before i leave my home to inti...
after packing and settle all my things...
it's around 6.30+...
then i fetch my sis to tuition...
reaching inti at 7+...
then go to meet kim and geik they all at pizza...
1st time i drive to KLIA myself...
it's really syok though i don't know they way...
just follow the board will do...
taking photo at airport...
then leave...
only for 1 hours 18 minutes,the parking fee is rm6.50...
still owing mui geik...
paiseh leh...
then the way back...
mui geik is the one who driving...
actually her skill not bad de...
just dont know what she scare...
then..she suddenly very got form...
fetch us go nilai spring...
that's the way we pass through the night before taking AS result...

it was really tiring...i straight away sleep after i get back to room...
then the next day morning...
i get my result...
it's just same as my forecast...
i didn't feel happy or sad at all...
just normal...
but it makes me don't know which field should i choose...
really makes me BLUR~

thu night...
we just sleep til 8++ only wake...
then go for dinner...
this is the 1st time i had my dinner for more than1 hour...
i really cant accept it...
omg..
then we go search for watching meteor...
but we wait till 12 to 1+...
still not yet see it...
then we go back to hostel...
so sad...
i go finish my remaining homework...
it takes me till 3...
go back sleep...
and again....
i'm the earliest to sleep...
hehe

fri...
i face a mental and physical problem...
but now things settle...
i just hope i can be tougher...
no more tears...
no more complaint...
no more playing...
all the best to you guys,dude...

被遗弃、被嫌弃、被抛弃...

最近的我...
才发现...
原来不被重视的感觉...
是那么的痛...
每当别人看到你时...
嘴里总是问着其他人...
那种感觉...
真的让我觉得掉进谷底...
感觉上...
就没有重视过你...
感觉上你就是有义务必须随传随到...
大家都认为你所做的都是应该的...
没有人需要在乎你的感受...
没有人需要明白你...
那种不被重视的痛...
不是割伤的痛...
而是寒冷...
被风刺痛...
也许一直以来的我...
就是那么的自我中心...
那么的不可理喻...
我的存在...
让别人有渴望宁静...
而希望我离去的感觉...
我...应该离去...
离开这需要宁静的城市...
直到永远...
让大家...
过着平静的生活...
我的离去...
是给你们最好的安慰..
再见了，朋友们~

again having fun...but smtg horrible cuming...

last week...only tue i'm staying at home..
the other days stay at inti...
wed stay at inti after class...
as usual...
wed is my movie day...
use alot money eat eat n buy buy...
sure got to do homework also la...
cause too tired...
just finish few sentence...
go back sleep already lor...
then...
wed just use up too much money and watch SALT...
nice movie...

thu...
as usual go class till 4...
then...
go back sleep if not mistaken...
night all go for dinner together...
then we go sing k for 2 hours...
twice in a week...
haha...
after finish sing k...
when going back...
meet sam...the mc of 30 hour famine...
he's going to leave the next day...
so go sing k with them lor...
continuously...
i play for 5 hours++
it's damn tired but happy...
after sing k...
we go meet daddy(kenny)...
pity him...that time only he's going to have his dinner...
cham cham...
then go snap photo with them along the way back...
i go back at around 2++...
but yet don't know why i cant fall asleep...
i keep my eye open til 4 only i get sleep...

the next day class is 8am...
then...
it's extremely tiring...
after class..
i go take my forcast result...
it's not what i want but is what i should get...
though it's the fact...
but i really feel sad...
especially when my bio teacher tell me i'm going to get B for my fav subject...
it's extremely hurt...
and make me do this decision...
if i really get B for my bio...
i'm going to give up my medic...
and going to take IB...

although almost all the people beside me advise me to take medic and never give up...
but i really not dare to take the risk...
it's for my future...
i really scare i'll regret...
tired of making decision...
damn tired!!!
no long have confidence in taking medic..
i'm going to get my result on thu...
i have completely no idea what i want to be and who i am...
what should i do???