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坐在考场上
每个人都在忙着填写...
唯独我一人...
放空
发呆
脑袋里却是一片空白
头痛得让我真的很想撞墙
根本完全没办法思考
一个个离开考场
除了感叹自己读得不够好
还能怪谁？
我是应该放弃自己的理想
找个铁饭碗就罢？
还是坚持于自己选择的...
不轨路
一开始坚持的我...
已经开始犹豫...
怀疑自己的能力...
我
矛盾
我开始
又回到那种前途茫然的感觉...
不知趋向的感觉又回来了...
开始担心....
我
能吗？
我有这个能力吗？
有资格吗？
讨厌那茫然的感觉！！！

everything is over...RESERVED~

from last week til now..
many things i got 2 handle...
most important is of course my own feeling n tot...
i duno whether i hav overcum it...
but wat i can say is...
though seems bak 2 normal...
but my feeling is not...
i'm no longer as last time...
i hope 2 b mature...
but act i'm not...
juz feel like ownself is childish...
though hate myself 2 b like tat...
but i din hav d tot 2 change...
duno y..
lazy 2 ask bout others...
lazy 2 noe...
lazy 2 express...
mayb tat is so called a RESERVED me...
tat's not bcoz i dun1 2 express...
is bcoz...
i scare d feeling of getting hurt...
not bcoz i'm difficult 2 understand...
is i prevent from being understand...
i duno how i pass through those high skul years...
but now...
it is...
i bcum a reserved person~
a "try 2 being un-understand" ppl

TEST,assignment,REVISION,event,DUTY...

oredi march...
my as exam cuming..
but not enuf time 4 me...
preparing 4 test...
doing plenty of assignment...
doing recision 4 as exam...
preparing 4 event...
sumore duty at tat booth...
reli not enuf time...
i oredi try 2 reduce my sleeping time...
but y time is stil not enuf???
all thing cum together now...
too many thing waiting 4 me 2 do...
but which should i finish it 1st???
now oredi cramp...
stress...
stil able 2 stand up???
tis is wat i question myself...

26,27,28/02/10

在这三天...
发生很多事...
当然...
开心的...
不开心的都有...
只是...
我已经克服了...

26/02/2010
玩到超爽的...
竟然赶三场...
1-去海塘吃火锅..
2-去station1帮姐和庆文庆祝生日...
3-回家会另一群在我家开派对...

27/02/2010
累到~
当然还是要做功课...
但是...
才做2题...
跑去学校...
因为另一天是pesta...
就去8一下咯...
晚上吃饭过后又跑去...

28/02/2010
pesta咯...
在学校玩了一整天...
所以...
功课也没做到咯...
咳~

这三天是真的很开心...
但是...
有点累咯~
还会有下次吗？

should b a happy day...

i juz tel kim today...
everytime i plan go out wif my classmate...
i reli extremely happy...
but y tis time seems so miserable..
mayb coz my failed planning...
reli sad...
extremely sad...
1st time i feel so...
though i noe is no1 fault...
juz me...
doing those stupid stuff...
making other in trouble...
but im ok wif changing of plan...
actually i got my own plan...
but tis wil only be shown after tat so called celebration...
i reli felt sorry 4 those i make in trouble...
sorry...
i apologise 4 it...
1st time i feel sad going out wif classmate...
but im not blaming u guys but MYSELF...
for those stupid planning n stupid decision...
anyway...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIE & DEVIL kv

累

我不知道...
自己是真的累...
还是...
因为我希望逃避...
我很累...
想到就累...
听到都累...
一天我不知道自己可以讲几次...
甚至...
这个累字...
连睡觉都会出现...
真的累吗？
连我自己都不知道...
或则...
从心灵上我是真的累了...
累了...
也表示厌倦吗？
还是已经不希望在面对...
如果是...
我想我的累...
应该是1+2吧...
因为我真的累了~