28July2009

English Version again...
feel tired these days...
as final exam cuming....
hav 2 do much revision compare 2 b4....
these days only busy doing revision n teaching others....
though i noe im not tat gud 2 teach....
but i oso noe tat....
is a chance 4 me 2 do revision...
a chance 4 me 2 learn from them...
i can noe whr i make mistake n how 2 answer question when they ask....
So...
reli thx alot....
though abit tired....
but i feel happy....
yesterday....
it's juz mon....
but v discuss n waiting 4 our MCD until 3 smtg n sleep reli late....
luckily...
i stil can wake today...hehe...

it's tue....
class til 12 only...
so happy....
can sleep at noon....
bout 4 hours i sleep....
syok o....
den???
bout 7 go out hav our dinner at rasamas....
without any planning....
v go Sepang Gold Coast...
syok again....
i like nite scene....
sumore at d beach...
reli like tat feel....
feel so calm....
take only abit photo....haha....

on d way bak....
v almost go 2 seremban...luckily got U-turn...
else....v got 2 "call 4 help"...
at 12.41am....
v safely reach inti area....
which v r most familiar...
feel like bak 2 home...
but v stil miss Sepang Gold Coast so much....
so much so much....
after reach skul...
as usual...v go dining hall 2 study...
finally finish teaching tat didi as tomoro he has che quiz....
n v all finish our revision 4 che....
yeah!tats y i like 2 teach ppl....
can do revision sumore....
juz duno is correct onot....keke...
everyting bak original....
tomoro got 2 go 4 class again....

moody n lost....

suddenly got a mood 2 write in english...

i hav mention b4...
im happy in inti...
but situation seems change....
evryting change...
i start cant join in their conversation...
slowly...
i seems like away from them...
no matter which group...
each group having their own conversation...
n i cant join in any...
even 1...
i reli duno wat happen 2 me....
but d only ting i noe is i m oredi away...
far apart from them...
even when sitting next 2 each other...
i hav ntg 2 say...
even a word...
i duno wat m i doing...
d ting tat i noe is juz tat...

i m lost...
lost in a jungle...
every1 is from n at their own world...
but...
i seems 2 b a tiny organism...
even not a organism...
is a dust...
tat cum from nowhere n to nowhere...
lazy 2 talk...
lazy 2 join...
lazy 2 act...
lazy 2 smile even...
every ting...
i hav no longer interested in it...
no longer 2 act 2 make ppl happy...
no longer able 2 make ppl smile...
i tink is time 4 me 2 say bye again...
i m going 2 bak 2 d 1 who din talk...



GOOD BYE,FRENZ~

由熟悉变陌生

走回那条曾经觉得熟悉到不行的路...
曾经...
我希望可以永远走过那条路...
因为...
那条路让我感到自己被保护着...
所以我希望那条路是漫长的...
感觉上我可以在那条路上...
安心得睡着...
总是觉得不会在那条路上跌倒...
即使我闭着眼睛...
也能够好好地走完...
因为对于那条路...
我很努力的尝试...
完完全全地把它记下...
甚至是多少步后会遇到小洞...
我都很努力得记下...
本来以为自己真的记下了...

到了今天...
我再次走回的时候...
我迷失了方向...
这时的我才发现...
这一条路...
并没有我想像中那般熟悉...
甚至可以形容为陌生...

我...
跌倒了...
竟然是在我觉得非一般熟悉的路线上...
跌在这条路的感觉是那么地熟悉...
我才发现...
原来...
我并不了解这条路...
它的曲直...
总是那么的陌生...
让我害怕...
开始害怕...
我是因为跌多了...
才没有忘记...
时间久了...
自然就忘记了...
而不是因为我真的对这条路了如指掌...
一直以来的自欺欺人...
只有那么笨的我...
才会相信...

为什么？！
为什么要现在告诉我这个事实???
承受不了...
但也无法不去接受了...

上个星期都在做什么？

上个星期就顾着练习presentation的东西咯...
还帮kim庆祝生日...
没有蛋糕...
可是我们用cheese tart来代替哦...
厉害吧？
哈哈~
上个星期的日子...
是我最不能够忘记的...
1.星期2-跟同学们去seremban jusco玩...其实是买衣服啦！只用了一个小时哦...
2.被人“关心”到过分！因为生病了...平时的我不什么容易生病，偏偏在这个时候又咳又伤风...
3.竟然出车祸...好彩没事...
4.presentation
5.excited state n hell state cum together...cant withstand!!!
6.test,quiz,hw...omg...
7.竟然忘记祝弟弟&慧力生日快乐...[这个讲爽罢了！]

总之，上个星期的生活...
让到我很想死啦!
差一点真的中忧郁症！

改变...

奇怪...
自从来到inti 上课...
我就变得很容易满足...
我满足于不被干扰的时刻...
患上自闭症？
我的答案竟然是我希望...

不可思议吧...

认识这里的人...真的让我觉得很满足...

因为他们总让我感觉到他们做人的诚恳....

让我觉得他们是那么的单纯...

让我觉得他们很容易沟通...
小斗嘴是难免的...
但是...
那不也是生活的小插曲吗？
反而让我觉得自在一些...
有2个可能：
1.我还不是真正了解他们...
2.他们就是这样...
当然，我希望答案是2...
开始觉得跟以前的朋友没有以前那样无话不谈了...
但是对他们就是有着那般的想念...
想念以前一起上课，出去玩，一起温习功课的时候...
真的希望回到以前...
但又不舍得放下现在...

矛盾的我~

finally got time..

report bout my life these few weeks...hehe...

1st bout d event tat i involve...
finally all ting go 2 d end on d 1st of july...
reli happy coz keep on play....hehe...

2nd my test...
all finish...

3rd is my assignment...
finally finish n pass up...

4th...i donate blood again leh...
reli syok...
coz...can help ppl...
can get 5 marks 4 mpw leh..
syok...

5th...everyting go fine...
suddenly feel like a busy life go 2 d end...
but smtg more terrible is going 2 reach me...
reli start worry bout my final exam...

at inti....
i oredi stay here 4 2 months...
everyting go well...
me n frenz here enjoy life...
enjoy yam cha,gossiping,sing k n study time...
not like form 6 juz studying n doing hw...
tats y i dun regret staying here n study here...
but i reli miss last time having fun wif papa they all...
n doing revision wif ttw they all...
miss u all so much...